There s so much to do and so much to catch up.

but wtf have we been doing?

等全世界都离开了那已经太晚，只剩对方的支持怎么会够？

要快点，再快点，才十六七岁不能以老年人的生活方式度过每天啊=.="

这不对……

我也很想随心所欲无拘无束，我也很想每天都躺在草地上星光下slack到爽歪歪,

但是不可以...为什么？我知道但是我不说。

总之

加油吧我们~~~我们加油吧~~~

不会错的。

要让大家都开心才行。

 

 

 

 

 

actually it took me 40+ mins to type something which i ve just deleted but dont worry it has nothing to do with what s above.

sometimes saying the wrong things or making the wrong move could lead to real bad stuffs .

I m a coward but it s all right.

Sigh.

at least I m not a bastard, yet.

who doesnt wanna be an insider ...

LOL.

 

I like being an insider. So exciting.

 

and this song has been stucked in my head for almost 3days ....I like eason chan. shit.

Jessica dislikes this song cos she said that it hasnt got any highs and lows. oh well.

oh and she called me today, haha. didnt have much to say to her this is bad :(

 

 

I feel terrible sometimes, someone tell me how not to be a bastard?

 

 

 

 

I dreamt that I went to Hwachong art gallery and the Jc2's prepboards were still there but when I wanted to take a look my mom woke me up.

LOL All exams are over~ finally can slack alr :D

 

Semester 1 s just gonna end like this, quite a pity actually cos I could have done so much more in these 5+months.

One very good example is coursework prep! Mrs Lai gave me a 5/10 for my prepwork section cos it is insufficient :(

think the highest is Jovenna, also just a 7.5 eh

 >:(

haha but haiya having slacked for half a year doing nothing but gossiping during AEP it is already quite heng for me to pass lol

Oh yea have I mentioned that I got only 40/60 for my SOVA test? and that s a weightage of 30% for my semester 1 art grade.

Overall for Art I got 75%,not so bad lah a 3.6.Although I expected a 4.0 since I got full marks for the first 2 SOVAS (then I realised it s not only me=.=" siannz)

lol if I were in Hwachong this would have been a A1. zzzz

 

Oh well coursework s submission is in approximately 60 days nd I m not even done with my layout.

1.8M x 1.2 M canvas somemore. but I believe in miracles.

And Mrs lai said it is possible to get full marks for coursework as long as the work s of A lvl standard.

I ve seen A lvl standard works before, but not at all confident in producing works that can match up. this is the first time I m working on such a big scale anyway. (and I initially wanted to do some technical drawing of ships eh. totally 找死)

 

but right now I have to complete my trexi designs...it s by tonight. was too ambitious I printed 7 templates....but only have inspiration for 3. So i m submitting only 3, at least one is going to win me sth hopefully :D

so that I can bring the trophy to hwachong and convince them to take me in :D

 

 

ok not wasting anymore time. Project 2009 can wait. bye

 

 

 

 

 

自己想的跟真是的原来太不一样，hahahaha I should have expected less.

就不会一而再的失望了:(

 

oh fk I m so fking disappointed

 

Going to the zoo tmr , I feel like a ten year old :)

and failed math chem and art. greatt.

 

cried when ms picca talked about her brother.

 

what else.

there s still so much to do.

why did i have to be nice lol =.="but oh well I m not regretting it.

很多的举手之劳...举到手酸....

 

 

Oh and I think they gave up on me.

dont know what to say

 

 

gota work harder man. gota be as good as her

 

Gonna blog about yesterday first since I didnt have the chane to. Cos I slept at 7pm.

OK.

 

So yesterday.

It was cool cos I didnt have much sleep the night before, while trying to mug history but at the same time watching Skins Season 3 and stuffs.

Drank 2 cans of Redbull and managed to stay up through the night. How bout calling me IRONWOMAN from now on.

Bathed and wore my uniform at 4am then decided to take a little nap but failed.Cos of the redbull. wtf.

So was just lying there until 6 and left for school.

 

School. Thought I d be dead but nope I wasnt. Took history paper after school, was fairly alright except for that I didnt have time for conclusion. It was only 50mins zzz.

Then went for 2.4km. Jeeezuz.

Thought I d die but nope I didnt. In fact I got a B with 14.39 mins.  It s quite imba for a girl already okay.

People like deanna and ruimin are monsters, they are not girls.

So after everyone in my class completed 2.4 we helped some other class to take their timings cos I think only half of their class was there and they could go home earlier if we helped them with the recording of the timings instead of them splitting into half and taking for each other.

Woah long sentence.

Ok so I help this girl called XXX XXXX to take her timing of each round. Yeap the rgs track is only 400+ meters so we have to run 6 rounds round the lousy track.

hahaha she kept looking at me whenever she ran pass Mr Yeo, Sakina said that it s because she doesnt trust me :D

So while sitting beside the track, I observed everyone's cellulites.

Tell you, it s fking disgusting.

And what s so disgusting about Cellulites is THAT EVEN THE SKINNIEST PEOPLE HAVE IT AT THE BACK OF THEIR THIGHS.

I wonder how  my cellulites look like. Hmmmmmmmm.

ok I just bounced around in front of the mirror and saw them. K lah not too bad, look like the fatter version of what s on my arms.

 

OK. so went home after 2.4 , and wanted to take a short power nap at 7 so I could wake up at 9 and do art. but again I failed. Was actually awake but turned off the phone alarm cos......I am who I am.

 

 

Then it s today :)

Thought I wouldnt be sleepy since I slept for almost 2 hours last night but oh well my body is so unpredictable >:(

Stayed up for all the shitty lessons including Philosophy. Jezuz. Philo is a totally waste of time man I was drawing behind eenette all the while.

then Died for CLE, when the class discussed about class party and class outings as well as class decos plus all the other boring stuffs.

half through CLE teri said I could cut her hair and I did. Quite cute LOL, now her fringe is no long touching her brows :) we made a fur ball with her hair which we kiaped between 2 papers and made the hair sandwich.

Went home right after school.

Downloaded driver for the tablet, so that it will be pressure sensitive. Then did some art with it.

 

 

 

 

 

and just for your info, cellulites look like this

those on the woman's thighs and butt. YUMYUM!

 

 

Got chased out of the house at 2 am last night,

both parents were screaming at me for using the comp at such hour , I talked back and my dad told me to get out. And I did zzz

I messaged my bff first but think that bff was already asleep so it s ok, I messaged Jessica.

she replied asking what happened so I told her about it

then I waited for her to call and she finally did

she told me to go home cos it s dangerous for a girl to be out alone at 2 sth

so I said ok I will and really wanted to hang up cos I didnt want her to hear me cry

 

本来写了很多但还是算了吧

该天

 

 

刚才又从地铁站走回家，又趁机想了很多。想方向，想过程，想短期的未来。越想越不对劲，这不是我想要的。我不知道自己想要什么。

没办法太manly, 还是算了。I iz a gurl 哈哈。

对这有太多预期，竟忘了主角其实是我。态度不对啊，不能再像看戏一样把自己置身事外了。

 

太不注重形式了么。

then how are all those mthrfckrs gonna understand me?

very tired.

 

Woah I got As for all 5 items today, including shuttle run :)

Yeah fking 10.9 seconds.  The guy who took my timing was so nice, think he started the timer at least 0.7 second later LOLLOLOLLOLOLLOLOLOL.

 

Got to finish SOVA by tonight cos Mrs Lai said in her email that there will be NO extension or else she wont be able to return us on time, as our SOVA exam s on 15th May. But I feel so sleepy, shall sleep for a while and wake up at 12 to chiong.

 

dont know what s wrong with me, I slept straight through the first 4 blocks today, including recess.

so only spent 4 dollars on food in school.

 

 

and went rjc in the afternoon to get tickets from YY for her chinese drama production hahaha.

there s raping scene leh, so cool.

 

Ok damn sleepy I m taking a really powerful power nap so cya.

 

maybe will post again later.

and if I dont feel lazy I ll scan some Project 2009.

Hi I didnt go to school today cos I caught a cold and went to see a doctor. The doctor said it s just normal flu so ÿou can still be my friend.

So I missed 3 papers, ss physics and bio. Retests most likely on friday....unless Ms Siow bluff me but I dont think so.

So tried to use today to mug but failed cos I wasnt in the mood and Ms Siow said in her sms that I should rest :) so that s another excuse.

 

Just saw the class email, there s Physical Fitness Test 5 items tomorrow.

Bet I m gonna fail shuttle run as usual.I m a slow person.

 

And,

I must agree to the saying that 夜路走多了一定会撞鬼。

LOLLOLOLOLOLLOLOLLOOLLLOOLOLOLLLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLLLOLOLOL

 

K I m gonna bathe now , turned on the water heater like 1 hour ago but I turned on my comp as well...like right after that. yea so I ended up blogging.

Haiz.

 

I HAVE to start on my aep layout this friday.

People like Nancy are already transferring their final work onto their canvas....and I m not even sure about my layout arhhh this makes me insecure.

Not like I m very sure that I ll have time during June. I want to spend my June doing sth else.

so I ll have to jiayou :)

 

 

Dont see the reason I m posting but nvm.

Went to baoguan in the morning cos as I ve said in the previous entry parents were very angry at me

My dad threatened to smash the comp if i dared to touch it at all

but I had to look at the bio ppt slides so I went baoguan.

tried to mug but failed, although with yuxiang around

seriously ah I think yuxiang should come and teach in rgs anyway his term will only start in august and he s (at least sounds like he is)like so much better than ALL the bio teachers I ve ever had.

I mean, at least better than AT. like who ISNT better than him?

actually Mrs Wong is ok but her voice makes me wanna sleep so bad everything.

so that s very sad.

 

but anyway

gonna talk about life.

 

ok

at least for now

I dont see my coursework development going anywhere and I ve got this whole bunch of shiat to do for Fashion Cluster

Report, portfolio, literature reviews and powerpoint slides.

zzzzz.

oh and SOVA s due on wednesday, plus history PPA the week after

:(

should have started earlier

what happened to the "GGSDDU" plan oh no

 

 

 

And Rgs Bdiv got 3rd for nationals :) rgs made it further than what many people expected, as we got only 3rd for zonals.

didnt go for the team dinner on thursday cos I was very tired but hmmm it was fun. I mean, being tired is fun. Really.

So it s been quite long since I last trained properly. Guess that was like 1 month ago or longer than that.

random basketball matches dont count cos it s not really sweating as compared to 4km + 3hours of drills

It s not part of my life anymore

now being fat is.

HAHAHAHA.

yea though I doubt that I ve put on any weight but everybody knows that fats are much lighter than muscles

so I can still weigh 58kg but look 65kg.

but it s ok for a man to be 60+ kg right.

Yeap.

If i cant fit into my garment for the fashion cluster photoshoot in june I m gonna laugh.

 

I feel like sleeping now I m very tired.

fell asleep in bishan library just now, cos I thought it might be more productive if I mugged with only yuheng and no one else around but I was wrong.

sad face.

good night.

 

 

zzzzzzzzzz sianz I m mugging bio there s so much to remember wtf

心如死灰。

 

and both parents were like screaming at me in the morning cos I returned home at 12 plus last night

didnt know what to do so I went back to my room

and was thinking why I have to bear all these shits

what s the point man

搞到里外都不是人

 

and I ve been thinking about this discovery I made a few days ago

I dont even know if there s still a need for me to be disappointed over this

feel like it s none of my business

or is it?

but I got to be 有风度man, yeahhhhh.

 

 

life sucks.

Nth s going well.

 

 

 

 

 

 

ok truth is.

I m gonna die.

 

 

YEAH nice I m blogging at home again !!! but still not able to download the stupid windows live messenger.

maybe it s the problem with starhub.

so now I m trying to install the standalone version

and it wants me to close IE.

k bye cya later