以前得不到的东西，现在不想要了。

oh well, 成熟haha.

 

saw it on ty just now and i like it:)

 

oh and last night I had this wonderful dream! I dreamt that I had a boyfriend that looks like 龟梨和也and I was very happy!!!!!

and I came to a realisation that I like goodlooking guys. with like, nice eyes and hot body. hahahah.

you know I was still smiling to myself even hours after I woke up. and I told people in school about him.

 

oh it went like this. He s ee iyn s friend or sth, and he gave up his sit to some needy person on a MRT ride, and ee iyn said she likes guys who gives up sits to needy people cos this proves that the guy has a good heart! and I totally agree with ee iyn! cos I know this guy who snatches sits on MRT and I really disliked him! ok anyway, a group of friends we were at his house I think and we were running around really happily when he suddenly jumped into the pool and started swimming! and his shirt was wet and I could see his body! and his body s so hot! omg! I WAS REALLY IMPRESSED HAHAHAHAHAHHA. then I didnt know why but he said he likes me! It felt as if we ve known each other for really long and I was really comfortable around him and stuff. Oh but he has some huge scars on his body, but of course I didnt mind. But when he asked me to be his girlfriend he seemed super duper afraid! There was -223476152361426374 confidence in his voice and he didnt dare to look at me so he closed his eyes like some little kid ! Oh and his arms were open. So I was like thinking "duhh where else do I find such a perfect guy lol so hot and cute and I LIKE HIM plus we ve been friends for soooo long" so I said yes and he was overjoyed and then we became lovers and we walked towards some place hand in hand and GUESS WHAT I WAS THINKING!!! I thought "hahahah I wish Mr Ang sees this" hahahah

 

ok I m gonna sleep now it s really late!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

每次自信心下滑到谷底就只能翻出陈年旧历安慰自己....多么不自信的一种表现啊...
他她们说的前途，人气，“能走得很远", “对你有信心"，什么时候渐渐都消失了。
知道自己不及他们说的一半好..........所以，自信不起来。

 

矛盾。

 

记得她眼睛里的光芒，跟对我说的话。当时还嗤之以鼻的心想那不是我要走的路，我是干大事儿的人，怎么能屈身于如此肤浅的领域？
我不肤浅.......?嗯？ 不肤浅么？切~~~

 

把自己看得这么高，把姿态摆得这么高，永远一副不经不慌与世无争不食人间烟火的德行.....还不是因为太恐惧被任何人抓住小辫子，
装圣女装着装着就真的变成圣女了，从此成了一个无趣的人，没性格，过于虚伪。恶心的嘴脸。

 

那天一个朋友也装圣女，旁观者清的我着实被恶心到了......恍然意识到，是否在别人眼里我跟她一样恶心......?

伪道义，不如不道义.....

 

假到弹一弹能掉下半斤灰来...........................eeeyer.

为什么要做个好人呢，为什么要温柔大方知书达理呢? 为了认可么？需要认可，但不是现在。
自己不舒服，其他都是扯谈。

为人做事高调会招人讨厌，而我很在乎别人的目光，不为什么.....

但是要适当的给予刺激跟挑战，否则大家如果都觉得没劲儿了，那还混个屁。

 

 

 

Oh man I was looking through my stack of rubbish just now and found some really interesting doodles I did in the past..plus this paper full of "I like you when you blah blah blah". Read through and thought it was very sweet hahaha gonna write more :)

 

and my room s neat now, for the first time in the past few months you can actually see the floor, and everything s back to where they suppose to belong. My mom is so lame she s watching this korean drama on channel 56 HAHAHA cos she said the actors and actresses are pretty and it s good for the eye.

 

Art coursework deadline got extended, but not sure for how long, Mrs Lai said that she ll tell us next friday.It s definitely gonna be more than a week as grading can only be done on saturdays! Very good. However my painting still looks as ugly, after so many days spent on it :(

I think I m letting peope down (just a few hahaha which includes myself)

 

Oh and I ve been feeling sick for the past few days, sneezing and coughing and looking fat. hmmmm.

and lry I was quite happy when you asked for updates of Project 2009 HAHAHAHA I THOUGHT NO ONE CARES ABOUT PROJECT 2009 AT ALL.

 

ok back to my room, still quite a lot of shits lying on the floor cos I was going through my stack of rubbish.

cya.

 

oh and Project 2009

 

20.02.09 ~28.02.09, totally of 8 pieces.

 

 

 

 

20.02.08  Renyuan drew on my memo pad LOL so wheeee guest drawer!

Life s great, I ve never felt this great before, this is what happens when you ve got too much RP..

you know, 18th July s gonna be a big day for me. Ok bet you dont.

 

其实我觉得在我有那种想法的时候就已经输了，还输得特别彻底，特别参不忍睹，像块烂泥被人用力拍在地上，啪唧一声大面积散开，渗进地面的坑坑洼洼里去，清都清不干净，从此被打入地下十八层.....永世不得翻身.....