最近变得很喜欢熬夜

觉得特别空虚，可能是因为太闲了.....哈哈哈哈哈真是贱骨头啊。

 

 

 

 

 

全世界都吃大便.

fck it rained today. zzzzz. like 10 mins after we rented the roller skates it raineddd.The rain was so heavy manzz, we could barely see what s 10 metres away. zzzzzz. so we ended up waiting in the shed with 23238512753 other strangers for 2 hours. but we did try to move from one shelter to the next when the rain got a little lighter..eh but still it was quite a bad idea to skate in the rain because despite from getting all wet, you tend to slip and get tripped and fall. zzz. but both of us are pro so that didnt happen.

haha. by right the rental place fines 30bucks for wet and dirty skates, but we were lucky that the rental person s a teenage girl and she was charmed by my handsome face so she didnt charge us. yeah. (fck i m shameless)

 

ok hmmm actually I m quite busy these days, why did I waste my day at ecp huh.. I dont understand =.=

I have damn fking alot of things to do for now. for example the internal camp shirt designs....and chem options homework...and ahh project 2009.

fck project 2009. why cant be it asexual and do itself? I think I owe at least 200 works...or maybe 250. this is so screwed. I cant work under pressure.fck.

 

and you know last night, I was so lonely, like I dont know why, but I really felt like dying............it was this empty feeling you get when you realise that the entire world is just made up of your own imagination. do you know?          ok I m bad at this. I dont get it either.

but then I became okay, so I think it s just those random mood swings you get when you re alone and have nobody to talk to.

in fact I have alot of people to talk to right now. but I still feel like I m all by myself. shit. maybe it s time to find know a new friend :)

 

Oh btw we went to rjc that day to look at the art exhibition of the J2s and 1s, actually I ve already gone there once last week...but no harm going again haha. so the seniors introduced some of the works to us and told us how it is like studying art in rjc. kind of makes me wonder if I m really keen in taking art next year..cos I think that...maybe...I dont really like art itself. I began feeling this way when I saw a photo of some random modern art exhibition on a magazine that day. I looked at the pictures and told myself that I m supposed to read this cos this is something which I m interested in. then after a while I came to a realisation that I dont actually get it. and neither am I interested in getting it. maybe all the while I ve just been doing things because I feel the need of doing it...and not because I truly like them. I have to think about the art pieces to analyse them because I m an art student because I m different from those art noobs. I HAVE to attend art exhibitions because I am an art student and i m different from those art noobs who DONT GO FOR ART EXHIBITIONS. haha. maybe that s why. haiz I really dont know. I liked art cos it makes me feel good about myself. that s all. :(

 

However since art s my best subject I m likely to take it. as for the rest of the subjects I really have to think about it first. most probably I m taking PCMA or BCMA..or even PCAE. Initially I wasnt thinking about taking econs at all, but zhipeng said that it s very relevant to your daily life and I quite agree. hmmmmm. but yuxin said if I take some weird combi like PCAE I might end up in some loser class! I dont want that to happen! I need handworking mugger people in my class to influence me.

this is so hard. I dont like making wrong decisions.

 

You know I just realisd that this entry is one of the longest I ve wrote in a few months. I used to be able to write 12351234 word blog entries......I ve really changed for the good. maybe the world loves me more now. wheee.

 

Prom s on the 19th. I ve not gotten my dress yet halp halp halp halp halp looks like everybody s settled on theirs already! I dont wanna panic the week before my prom..it s the first prom of my life, it better be satisfactory.

 

ok that s all I have to update about my life. and i saw this thread on tianya, fck, things like this really make me wanna get a boyfriend. nah there s the address : http://www.tianya.cn/New/PublicForum/Content.asp?idWriter=13331312&Key=531887018&strItem=funinfo&idArticle=1615223&flag=1

 

k byebye I m sending my shirt design to pocheng alr.

 

 

Hi my gpa s super low. fck life.

and guess what, I m going ECP on saturday with old-friend!!!

hhahahaha got so excited after watching the imba inline skating video , I really wanna learn it :)

 

life s great now cos I ve got nothing I wanted. NOTHING.

最近伤感流.........

逛天涯看到一贴子 ----------------〉>『娱乐八卦』 [八卦江湖]一些孤独无聊时的可悲小习惯

这帖子的气氛.......边看边憋屈到翻白眼........

 

这是楼主写的...口气哀伤到这样.....引得大家的回复也很sad...

 

 

 

作者：快乐的小8哥 提交日期：2009-3-29 13:55:00 访问：84070 回复：1202

很多次在不经意间，那个声音就会说"还是算了"

 

 

 

Hi I havent updated for quite a while, cos I m very into chinese recently and I ve been updating on xiaonei.com cos only people there understand what I write.

:)

I m only here to say that

 

 

I m so happy, cos I dont hear this everyday :D

ok bye. there s math paper tmr, 19% weightage zzzzzz.

 

 

字正腔圆君，唱得我心都碎了~~~~

 

 

阳光正温暖 一直照进我心里

如果没有你 怎么会有我今天

有时我会想起 和你经历的故事

那些情景在飞扬 甜蜜又感伤

再次走过熟悉的地方

如今的你不知在何方

你曾给我的温暖感觉 依然在我心

如果再见你 又是怎样的情景

会不会将你 再次拥进我怀里

阳光正温暖 一直照进我心里

往事已遥远 一年又一年

竟然在这一天 再不经意之间

人群拥挤的街头 走过我身边

风吹起的青色衣衫

夕阳里的温暖容颜

你比以前更加美丽 像盛开的虹

这是我难忘的一天 在伊人和冲动之间

看着你渐渐的远去 消失在人海中

179cm & 176cm.

 

that s not very tall but it's okay.

wah I hate you man, you were so mean to me

why did you have to zao as soon as you see me appearing

and you left me alone after receiving a call from dontknowwho

:(

so mean eh.

 

ok off to tuitonnn

 

 

I m so tired this is so crazy my sec 4 life s ending everybody s counting down to EYAs ok 23 more days ?

It s very scary how everybody s mugging and I m just wasting my time away doing things like blogging when I should actually be sleeping

 

I think life sucks for now I hate studying I just wanna be a digital illustrator when I grow up :(

got back art grades, haha the first two person which I informed (other than people in the art room) were yuxin and qiongye, oh yeaa.

I sort of knew what I d get...since yuxin asked ms tay and ms tay said mine s not bad hahahaha and yes she gave me full marks!

but she was the only one that s so generous...other than Mr chia cos I think he gave alot of people >95.

the lowest I got from a teacher s 80, HEEEE still a 4.0

 

while waiting for our grades the sec4 saps did ceramics (officially) for the first time, lol.

tianyuan and I made a penguin each...they are couples, and they have a house.it s really cute I m gonna put up the pictures on facebook later

haha at first we wanted to make things like vase and bowls and pans but then tianyuan gave up and made a husband penguin for my lady penguin

very sweetzz.

 

then went to my mom s office to get her charger for her, cause she hasnt been to work since she fell ill and it s been 10+ days so her phone s dying.

reached the hospital at about 6 +, bought food for myself on the way, and shampoo for mom cos she hasnt washed her hair for 2 days cos hospital no shampoo

she s better now, able to read newspaper and walk around within her ward :)

something s working

 

SS PT s due next monday and I ve not even started , as usual. and I wont be at home tmr cos I need to go to the hospital and toys convention...

quite excited for it cos I think I d get to meet alot of cool people like xueyi ,deviant jingxuan and Zemotion+ Noah

hahaha.

 

and being at home alone is quite scary.

now I realise how disgusting I was and still am. disgusting piece of shit

Please tell me I did well for my coursework.

那我就死而无憾了........

AH I CANT FINISH MY COURSEWORK PREP BOARD I M SO DEAD AND I M FKING SLEEPY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOMEONE HALP HALP HALP MIE.

以前得不到的东西，现在不想要了。

oh well, 成熟haha.

 

saw it on ty just now and i like it:)

 

oh and last night I had this wonderful dream! I dreamt that I had a boyfriend that looks like 龟梨和也and I was very happy!!!!!

and I came to a realisation that I like goodlooking guys. with like, nice eyes and hot body. hahahah.

you know I was still smiling to myself even hours after I woke up. and I told people in school about him.

 

oh it went like this. He s ee iyn s friend or sth, and he gave up his sit to some needy person on a MRT ride, and ee iyn said she likes guys who gives up sits to needy people cos this proves that the guy has a good heart! and I totally agree with ee iyn! cos I know this guy who snatches sits on MRT and I really disliked him! ok anyway, a group of friends we were at his house I think and we were running around really happily when he suddenly jumped into the pool and started swimming! and his shirt was wet and I could see his body! and his body s so hot! omg! I WAS REALLY IMPRESSED HAHAHAHAHAHHA. then I didnt know why but he said he likes me! It felt as if we ve known each other for really long and I was really comfortable around him and stuff. Oh but he has some huge scars on his body, but of course I didnt mind. But when he asked me to be his girlfriend he seemed super duper afraid! There was -223476152361426374 confidence in his voice and he didnt dare to look at me so he closed his eyes like some little kid ! Oh and his arms were open. So I was like thinking "duhh where else do I find such a perfect guy lol so hot and cute and I LIKE HIM plus we ve been friends for soooo long" so I said yes and he was overjoyed and then we became lovers and we walked towards some place hand in hand and GUESS WHAT I WAS THINKING!!! I thought "hahahah I wish Mr Ang sees this" hahahah

 

ok I m gonna sleep now it s really late!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

每次自信心下滑到谷底就只能翻出陈年旧历安慰自己....多么不自信的一种表现啊...
他她们说的前途，人气，“能走得很远", “对你有信心"，什么时候渐渐都消失了。
知道自己不及他们说的一半好..........所以，自信不起来。

 

矛盾。

 

记得她眼睛里的光芒，跟对我说的话。当时还嗤之以鼻的心想那不是我要走的路，我是干大事儿的人，怎么能屈身于如此肤浅的领域？
我不肤浅.......?嗯？ 不肤浅么？切~~~

 

把自己看得这么高，把姿态摆得这么高，永远一副不经不慌与世无争不食人间烟火的德行.....还不是因为太恐惧被任何人抓住小辫子，
装圣女装着装着就真的变成圣女了，从此成了一个无趣的人，没性格，过于虚伪。恶心的嘴脸。

 

那天一个朋友也装圣女，旁观者清的我着实被恶心到了......恍然意识到，是否在别人眼里我跟她一样恶心......?

伪道义，不如不道义.....

 

假到弹一弹能掉下半斤灰来...........................eeeyer.

为什么要做个好人呢，为什么要温柔大方知书达理呢? 为了认可么？需要认可，但不是现在。
自己不舒服，其他都是扯谈。

为人做事高调会招人讨厌，而我很在乎别人的目光，不为什么.....

但是要适当的给予刺激跟挑战，否则大家如果都觉得没劲儿了，那还混个屁。

 

 

 

Oh man I was looking through my stack of rubbish just now and found some really interesting doodles I did in the past..plus this paper full of "I like you when you blah blah blah". Read through and thought it was very sweet hahaha gonna write more :)

 

and my room s neat now, for the first time in the past few months you can actually see the floor, and everything s back to where they suppose to belong. My mom is so lame she s watching this korean drama on channel 56 HAHAHA cos she said the actors and actresses are pretty and it s good for the eye.

 

Art coursework deadline got extended, but not sure for how long, Mrs Lai said that she ll tell us next friday.It s definitely gonna be more than a week as grading can only be done on saturdays! Very good. However my painting still looks as ugly, after so many days spent on it :(

I think I m letting peope down (just a few hahaha which includes myself)

 

Oh and I ve been feeling sick for the past few days, sneezing and coughing and looking fat. hmmmm.

and lry I was quite happy when you asked for updates of Project 2009 HAHAHAHA I THOUGHT NO ONE CARES ABOUT PROJECT 2009 AT ALL.

 

ok back to my room, still quite a lot of shits lying on the floor cos I was going through my stack of rubbish.

cya.

 

oh and Project 2009

 

20.02.09 ~28.02.09, totally of 8 pieces.

 

 

 

 

20.02.08  Renyuan drew on my memo pad LOL so wheeee guest drawer!

Life s great, I ve never felt this great before, this is what happens when you ve got too much RP..

you know, 18th July s gonna be a big day for me. Ok bet you dont.

 

其实我觉得在我有那种想法的时候就已经输了，还输得特别彻底，特别参不忍睹，像块烂泥被人用力拍在地上，啪唧一声大面积散开，渗进地面的坑坑洼洼里去，清都清不干净，从此被打入地下十八层.....永世不得翻身.....