fck it rained today. zzzzz. like 10 mins after we rented the roller skates it raineddd.The rain was so heavy manzz, we could barely see what s 10 metres away. zzzzzz. so we ended up waiting in the shed with 23238512753 other strangers for 2 hours. but we did try to move from one shelter to the next when the rain got a little lighter..eh but still it was quite a bad idea to skate in the rain because despite from getting all wet, you tend to slip and get tripped and fall. zzz. but both of us are pro so that didnt happen.

haha. by right the rental place fines 30bucks for wet and dirty skates, but we were lucky that the rental person s a teenage girl and she was charmed by my handsome face so she didnt charge us. yeah. (fck i m shameless)

 

ok hmmm actually I m quite busy these days, why did I waste my day at ecp huh.. I dont understand =.=

I have damn fking alot of things to do for now. for example the internal camp shirt designs....and chem options homework...and ahh project 2009.

fck project 2009. why cant be it asexual and do itself? I think I owe at least 200 works...or maybe 250. this is so screwed. I cant work under pressure.fck.

 

and you know last night, I was so lonely, like I dont know why, but I really felt like dying............it was this empty feeling you get when you realise that the entire world is just made up of your own imagination. do you know?          ok I m bad at this. I dont get it either.

but then I became okay, so I think it s just those random mood swings you get when you re alone and have nobody to talk to.

in fact I have alot of people to talk to right now. but I still feel like I m all by myself. shit. maybe it s time to find know a new friend :)

 

Oh btw we went to rjc that day to look at the art exhibition of the J2s and 1s, actually I ve already gone there once last week...but no harm going again haha. so the seniors introduced some of the works to us and told us how it is like studying art in rjc. kind of makes me wonder if I m really keen in taking art next year..cos I think that...maybe...I dont really like art itself. I began feeling this way when I saw a photo of some random modern art exhibition on a magazine that day. I looked at the pictures and told myself that I m supposed to read this cos this is something which I m interested in. then after a while I came to a realisation that I dont actually get it. and neither am I interested in getting it. maybe all the while I ve just been doing things because I feel the need of doing it...and not because I truly like them. I have to think about the art pieces to analyse them because I m an art student because I m different from those art noobs. I HAVE to attend art exhibitions because I am an art student and i m different from those art noobs who DONT GO FOR ART EXHIBITIONS. haha. maybe that s why. haiz I really dont know. I liked art cos it makes me feel good about myself. that s all. :(

 

However since art s my best subject I m likely to take it. as for the rest of the subjects I really have to think about it first. most probably I m taking PCMA or BCMA..or even PCAE. Initially I wasnt thinking about taking econs at all, but zhipeng said that it s very relevant to your daily life and I quite agree. hmmmmm. but yuxin said if I take some weird combi like PCAE I might end up in some loser class! I dont want that to happen! I need handworking mugger people in my class to influence me.

this is so hard. I dont like making wrong decisions.

 

You know I just realisd that this entry is one of the longest I ve wrote in a few months. I used to be able to write 12351234 word blog entries......I ve really changed for the good. maybe the world loves me more now. wheee.

 

Prom s on the 19th. I ve not gotten my dress yet halp halp halp halp halp looks like everybody s settled on theirs already! I dont wanna panic the week before my prom..it s the first prom of my life, it better be satisfactory.

 

ok that s all I have to update about my life. and i saw this thread on tianya, fck, things like this really make me wanna get a boyfriend. nah there s the address : http://www.tianya.cn/New/PublicForum/Content.asp?idWriter=13331312&Key=531887018&strItem=funinfo&idArticle=1615223&flag=1

 

k byebye I m sending my shirt design to pocheng alr.